Welcome to my DIMSUM IN THE SEA blog, dear visitors! ^^
This blog is about my experiences from the trip to Southeastern Asia.
My trip starts on July 6th and ends at August 9th what makes almost 5 weeks.
I'll try to record here my experiences, feelings, ideas & everything DUCKY that happens to me during this trip. ^^
The countries I'm going to visit:* SINGAPORE
* MALAYSIA
Back to my DIMSUM LIFE blog
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Sunday, September 04, 2005 |
This entry which I wrote on Sept. 2nd and posted at my Dimsum Life blog was actually supposed to be posted here.....so I'm posting it. It's depressing, I warn you.
I'm back from Malaysia & I've never felt so empty, so lonely, so sad...................................my honey is in Malaysia feeling the same.....we just wish we could be together. :(
We're just chatting but I don't really like it....
I wanna see his face, I wanna hold his warm big hand, I wanna rest on his shoulder, I wanna hear his voice, I wanna hug him & be hugged by him, I wanna kiss him gently or be kissed by him, I wanna play with his shiny dark hair....I just............simply.... WANNA BE WITH MY RAY. :(
The thing is, we love each other very deeply.
It's like a beautiful dream...I'm so loved by him...he's so loved by me....but...we can't be together everyday..we're 10 000km apart and that's just too cruel to bear. >.<
I still didn't fully get that I'm no longer in Malaysia, that Ray is so far away from me...I still feel like I want to sit by his side & talk to him cuz I feel like he's just in the next room...but he's not. :(
It's so simple, yet so difficult, practically impossible now.....................as I said....I just wanna BE WITH MY RAY.
Just BE WITH HIM.
Share things, support each other, take care of each other, help each other....just....be together like we did for the past two months in Malaysia. T_T
Would you believe, that me - a relatively cold person - was crying for TWO WHOLE DAYS because I couldn't bear that I have to leave Ray & his wonderful family?
O
h yes, I did so.
I tried to stop the tears but I just couldn't. I almost flushed away my contact lenses..heh...
I've never been crying this much. Seriously...and the worst thing was, that I knew I couldn't change the fact that I have to leave..stupid school..
Even Ray was as sad as I saw some tears trickling down from his eyes.
Imagine that.
A guy crying. Cuz of me leaving.
I though such things are impossible, but.....
The worst thing was the goodbye itself.
When I was going down to that passport checking thing......................ohhh..........I was crying like sh*t and I was holding Ray's arm tightly and then I did something very untypical for the cold emotions-not-showing me..I hugged him & whispered:
"Oh Ray, I love you so much..."
He said "Me too....I love you too.."
And then we were hugging, kissing and - in my case - crying and whispering "I love you" to each other....then I had to go....but I saw Ray waving at me and saying "I love you" to me...but then I got off to the train leading to the international departures terminal so I lost him from my sight..........and I cried...and cried.....and cried.....whole KUL-SIN flight I was crying....
Then, at Changi I somehow managed not to cry..but I went to e-mail Ray.
But I was staring at the pics in my cam for like million times...so sad..............we two hugging each other....me with extra-sized red eyebags (too much crying) and Ray with a sad face holding me tight...audsytygdhihdahj!! T_T
And by the way....my Ray bought me a beautiful gift......now I'm proudly wearing it and I'm not gonna wear it off, NEVER. ^^
And this gift is a beautiful Roxy necklace, silver (maybe?) with silver-bright blue stuffs pendant, it's in a butterfly shape & I simply love it. ^^
Ray gave it to me before we were off to the airport....it was wrapped in a sleek pink box with a little elegant ribbon and I almost died when I saw it....it was soo unexpected..and I was soo happy. ^^
Ah well.
See you in 7 months (if Ray is coming here) or 10 months (if only I'm coming there for summer holidays), my honey!
And here's Justine's comment & my reply:
| Posted by DaoMingMikai @ 09/02/2005 04:07 PM PDT |
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OMG... T_T *cries too* I dunno... I just feel so sad too. For you and Ray. :(
But don't worry.. I'm sure 10 months will seem like nothing to you guys, since you seem like you'll be together forever. :) I dunno... It seems to me like you two love each other very very much. ^^ |
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| Posted by Mich @ 09/04/2005 01:16 PM PDT |
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Wahh...do you think we possibly could stay together forever?
I don't really believe in love after I saw all the relationships of my family members literary SUCK but on the other hand......I've always been different!
Ah yay, Justine..I hope we'll be together forever...I hope. ^^
And 10 MONTHS IS A LOT!!!!! TT_TT |
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Warning: MUSHY. CORNY. MELANCHONIC. I can't read what I wrote cuz I'll start crying. Yes, it's THAT melanchonic. @_@
It's so hard to see my dear Ray sleeping peacefully & know that in bloody
FOUR DAYS
(including today) I'll be leaving him for whole long sad lonely - but bryndzove halusky filled -
10 months...............
I won't be able to hug him gently...
To kiss him...
To playfully slap him..
To laugh with him..
To share food with him..
To share drinks with him..
To listen to him playing guitar..
To sleep by his side...
To rest on his shoulder...
To hold his hand..
To talk to him about anything..
To get upset at him & forgive him in the next 5 mins...
To go to Watsons & try crazy lipsticks and hear him telling me to "Try this one, it looks slutty~"...
To go together to the SPCA animal shelter & see dogs & cats waiting for the new owners and discuss which puppy should we take...
To swim together in a beautiful turquoise waters...
To go to various pet shops and see if they got golden retriever puppies cuz according to one my freaky dream after we got married, we went to our light yellow bungalow surrounded by palm trees & then we were happily off to buy a GOLDEN RETRIEVER PUPPY...
To talk about our future plans...
To..........................................................................................
I'm DYING. T_T
I'm seriously DYING.
I can't take this anymore.
I've never loved anyone THIS MUCH. And actually only now I'm fully realising HOW MUCH I love him!!!
Too bad that I'm leaving in bloody FOUR days, right?!
I need to survive 2 long flights - KL-Singapore & Singapore-Vienna - to bang myself into my pillows (and Peif!) & cry all night long.
WAHHHHHHHHH~~~
Life is so unfair. :(
I wanna be with Ray!
If only he could be in Slovakia.....but of course he can't, not yet.
I hope & wish that ONE DAY we'll be really together. ^^
In a bungalow with a golden retriever??? ^^
Who knows??
Good things happen....................although maybe this would be too good to happen, if you know what I mean...
*sigh sigh sigh*
T_T
FOUR DAYS.
Fuck this life!!!! >.< T_T
*screams & dies of sadness*
Back from the Malaysian island paradise FEW PICS FIRST:  Who says I'm NOT curvy? ^^ Waiting in Mersing....
Fat looking me, cute Teresa & yawning Chris. Still in Mersing.
PARADISE (although this looks boring).
This is Pulau Aur (I think). Pic sucks, I'll upload more when I'm back to SVK bored enuff to resize.
Aaaahhhh.....Pulau Gaul maybe??? Crazily BEAUTIFUL in the reality, but boring when taken by Ray's Sony Ericsson. :P
A LITTLE BIT OF NAUGHTY STUFFS - HIDE KIDS' EYES:
Me sleeping happily & getting SUNBURNT LIKE HELL even more happily. Muahaha. This is on the boat. My nanoboobs are fascinating. *sarcastic grin*Well, now to the trip. We went to Malacca 1st - I LOVED the chicken rice balls we ate there. I LOVED the dim sum we ate there. I LIKED the satay we ate there. But that dim sum really had no competition, I almost died eating it. ^__^ Also we visited a Chinese temple & some stoopid souvenir shop where I bought 2 fans, one bamboo one and the other batik one. I'll post nicier pics once I'm in SVK, okie?Then we went to JB (Johor Bahru) to meet Lynnie's dad & take my remaining luggage. Nice nice but also nice traffic jams. >.> And then we were off to Mersing. Wah! There we went eat VEERY NICE fried rice, clams, fried mee & veggies. Delicious & cheap! &licks fingers even now* Although before this eating we went to book a hotel and we've found a budget hotel - a very nice, clean one - for the FREAKING RM40!!!!!! FIVE PEOPLE FOR RM40!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! In SVK I could go to the Chinese restaurant twice for RM40. :P Or buy three sets of dimsums. BWAHAHA. The hotel was very clean & nice, no hot water and not attached bathrooms but who cares anyways. ^^ The next day we were off to book paradise outing for all of us - Ray's dad, Ray, Chris, Teresa & me - and so we did so & went to the beach where we encountered annoying sea insects - poking us everywhere - and jellyfish in the sea so we didn't swim there at all. However, the next day we were standing happily at the Mersing's stinky boaty place at 8am waiting for our dude & our boat. And so.......................our boat came............an old green-white-blue wooden thing.....and we hopped on (we had to jump on one boat, then other and then ours - pretty dangerous) & were enjoying the sea breeze. YAY!!!! YAY!!!SEA BREEZE!!!In like 40 mins we came to the 1st island - Pulau Gaul - and I completely endlessly fell in love with that. And Ray wrote "Mich et Ray" to the beautiful white coral sand..heeh...how romantic. ^^;; Also he wrote there "Lost" - name of his fav serial. Crazy crazy boy. And crazy crazy Chris went to poo there - WHAT A POLLUTION OF MY iISLAND!!! >.< T_T Then we went to another island, I think Pulau Aur. And in front of Pulau Aur our boat broke down. OOppps!!! So we had to wait for another boat to come & rescue us.... In the meantime we went to this island...enjoyed ourselves....Ray found me a clam ring which I lost later (he said he's heartbroken XD)...and then horribly tired went back. We were suppsed to visit more islands but the boat broke down so whateva. Anyways. I'm lazy to write & Chris came back so I should go off. Byez! ^^ Big thanks to Ray for the pictures! ^^
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Wednesday, August 24, 2005 |
One of my seaweed cravings got true although not exactly in the SEAWEED-SOUP state as I wished for...but still..................we bought a ROASTED SEASONED SEAWEED yesterday! ^^ How ducky! Very healthy & very good. ^^ I like it. ^^ And can there be anything healthier than breakfast consisting of the Oolong tea & roasted seasoned seaweed snacks???? Hardly. ^__^ And then a WONDERFUL & SUPER YUMMY FRIED RICE for lunch, cooked by Ray's mom.....too bad that I destroyed my today's healthy diet by munching stupid American choco cookies just a while ago. -_~ "Forgive me, Father, for I have sinned."(Oh man, I remember something from The Bible?? O_o I rock duck. XD) ... You see me gradually becoming a TERRIBLE AH LIAN??? One day I'll be listening to Hilary Duff & Westlife, wear baby blue high heels & pink lingerie consisting of push-up bra and sexy transparent thong. And maybe I'll use bronzing glittery blusher, fake eyelashes & sexy purple lipstick with diamond shine. Maybe I'll even wear 3cm long baby blue-white miniskirts with "America Sexy Girl 06" written on the back of it (that means on my prominent butt). And probably I'll die my hair blonde & curl it so I'll have a sexy Shakira-like hair!!!! Yupppiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Speaking about becoming ah lian, today I went to The Body Shop as I planned to & got myself an.............................................. EYESHADOW. *bats eyelids* Very nice one ok?!  Don't shiver, I don't prefer PINK one. I liked the GOLDEN one. Very sexy shimmering light golden eyeshadow..........I look SO good now!!! UNBELIEVABOOBLY SEXY MICH!!!! It's almost a transparent invisible color BUT that light golden shimmer!!!! DAMN SEXY!  Oh, I love you my sexy shimmering eyeshadow until the rest of my life. ^^ Also I wanted to buy this SEAWEED PURIFYING FACIAL WASH but I got stupidly convinced by stoopid Ray that it's too expensive & it's gonna be cheaper in Europe & blablabla. I'm SO DUMB!! I dunno how could have I believed his blabs - things are NEVER cheaper in Europe! And the nearest Body Shop is in Austria & we all know that Austria isn't too cheap. Grrrrrrr, I suck. >.< But maybe it's good that I didn't buy it.....my skin is dry in the winter, and these seaweed stuffs are better for normal/oily skin, not for a dry one. So I guess I'll need something for a dry skin (how surprising!). Maybe this?  Not bad. ^^ *ah lianish nod* And check out few retarded pics of me & Ray taken by his fone!! ^__^  In TOYS'R'US. Muahaha! :P I know I'm a Queen Of Stupid Face Expressions! ^^  Aaaah, how romantic~ ^^
I love this picture. ^_^ But somehow I look there very erm.....I look as if I was hiding some VERY FUNNILY PAKI SECRET. Bwahahaha. XDEnuff pics!!! Lazy to upload here. sorrie! But you see how fair am I? And this is my fairness during the summer what means I'm actually TANNED. O_O I got more important things to do now - for example GOING TO PEE. :P
Because my traumatized Slovak mind finally understood that I just CAN'T eat bryndzove halusky here in Malaysia, it transferred to another craving: ANY KOREAN SOUP. But preferrably somethong with SEAWEED.And preferrably somethong what's NOT spicy cuz I don't feel like crying today. :D But all I can do about it is............................ ............................. sit by the PC & drool silently -_- ............................... ....cuz my dear boyfriend who was recently suffering from brutal headaches is (WOW!! how unusual! *sarcasm*) SLEEPING & so there's no one to drive me to Ampang Point (Chris is sleeping too & Teresa's driving skills are erm, spectacular but I wish to live so she better doesn't drive :S) where's one Korean place. T_T Plus it's raining (irrelevant; and anywayz, I love rain in tropical countries!!! It's BEAUTIFUL!!!!). *sniff* T_T And I wanted to go to The Body Shop too, to get myself some seaweed skin treatment (I got only the skin cream but I wanna facial foam & blabla). There's somethong wrong with me, I'm endlessly obsessed with seaweed stuffs. Still. @_@ But it's a nice obsession cuz seaweed stuffs (whether it's FOOD, COSMETICS or whatever) are VERY HEALTHY. ^^ When I come back home to SVK, I must ask Li Hong nicely to cook me some seaweed...or gimme an advice on cooking it cuz I always pick the wrong type of seaweed & then it's yucky. I SUCK, I know, shut up. -_~ :D !!!!!!!!!!! KOREAN-STYLE SEAWEED SOUP RECIPESOh man. I love this one - and I wanted to cook it once but then I was lazy to - it is SO delicious: PINE NUT RICE SOUPNo seaweed here, but *SIGH!!!* I ate it once & it was FUCKING YUMMYLICIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WANNA PINE NUT RICE SOUP!!!!!!!!!!!!! *cries hectolitres of pine nut rice tears* Someone help me. Someone cook me pine nut rice soup OR take me to a Korean restaurant. T_T I'm desperate. T_T
I forgot to do one impooportant thing....
Me & Ray are OK again also thanks to mai deer baibee..............
FENK JUU!!!!
AJ LAV JUU!!!
Baibee for duckpresident. ^^
Fenk juu for everythong, juu aar mai true star & friend. ^__^
An entry probably insulting all Christian around The fact that I'm talking shit about God doesn't mean that I mean it. I respect Christianity, Christians, their beliefs, everything. I know attenting masses just for fun is dumb & insulting. Sorry guys. Tell me "GO TO HELL!" and probably I'll go. ^^;;;
I've been to the mass for the 2nd time in my life yesterday.
MUAHAHAHA the best thing is, that I AM NOT EVEN A CHRISTIAN!!!!
I dunno why I visit masses when I don't even believe in God.
Well, actually, yesterday I went there cuz I had no other choice, Ray went to the church with his family and we went directly from KLCC.
And for the 1st time I went there cuz of the pure curiosity.
I tell ya, I'm the best non-believing wannabe Christian you can find!
I do everything I have to, during the mass.
I kneel.
I stand.
I sit.
I say "Amen".
I say "May the peace be with you" to whoever is by my side & behind me and wherever.
I read the hymns, I read the papers offered by the St. John's church. Yesterday's theme was "Forgiveness" and it was nice, I took it home. ^^
I pray when I have to. (I really pray. But I pray "IN CASE You exist, yadda yadda yadda..." not "Dear God, yadda yadda yadda..")
I just wish I could know the lyrics & melodies of the gospel sung there! It's so kool!!!
PLACE TO SING = CHURCH!
Muahaha!~
Honestly...
My view on God is VERY flegmatic.
I don't care if He exists or not. If He exists, then fine, that's great. If He doesn't exist, then fine too, we're alone but whatever.
I know I've just pissed off 99.99999% of Christians in this world.
I'm sorry. -_-
But you know what's fun?
When I'm feeling down, I pray.
And when I'm feeling VERY happy, I thank Him for whatever is making me happy - if I remember to do so - but always saying my cautious "If You exist blablabla".
I really dunno myself anymore.
Can anyone be weirder than me? :P
Warning: SUPER-MAXIMALLY-EXTRA-ABSOLUTELY Korean-drama-like. BEWARE!!!
One wouldn't believe what happened yesterday!!!
Me & Ray were in a TSUNAMI CRISIS.
But being the loving creatures as we are, we weren't really arguing.
We were just being irrtated (Ray's case) and sad (my case).
Ray told me that it irriates him how pessimistic am I, that it irritates him that I'm so cynical and that the thing which irritates him (and makes him feel bad for me) the most is me absolutely not believing in anything, nor in myself.
Oh, I was so scared that he seeing all these my faults will leave me.....I was really so scared...because I felt like my worries that I'm not worth him are proven to be true. @_@
Hmm..apparently he knew...when I was sitting by the PC reading random blogs, he came to me and quietly told me that he won't break up with me cuz of all this, that I shouldn't worry.
Not that I've been paying attention to that. -_~ Ya know, I was busy being sad & scared. Tsk.
But somehow.....a while after that me & Ray were sitting together talking quietly & everything seemed to be fine again.
He says he had mood swings.
I offered him my Panadol Menstrual. XD
Then I told him I need his help so I can start believing at least in myself. I told him I'm like this cuz of many stuffs (family, blabla - *lazy to type*) & that I think that I'm not worth anything and anyone liking me and that I think I'm nuffin & all this leads to me being such a cynical, pessimistic, non-believing asshole.
Yeah, I need his help.
Badly.
And I need to start believing in LOVE too.
So again, I need his help!
Cuz WHO ELSE can make me believe in love if not my BOYFRIEND, right? ^^
And the best thing was our conversation when we were just about to sleep. It was somethong like this:
Me: "Good night~" *kisses Ray on the lips*
Ray: "Good night~"
After a while:
Me: "I'm sorry for being the way I am...I wanna change, but I need your help."
Ray: "Mmmm~"
Me: "I'm so glad...and I'm sorry :S I felt so sad. :S And I feel bad for you having such a hopeless girlfriend."
Ray: *turns around so he can face me* "I made you feel bad & sad...uhh..I'm so sorry." :S
Me: "I deserved it anywayz!"
Ray: "..."
Me: "Eh. Thanks for being with me even when I'm such a hopeless ass. Sometimes I wonder why are you doing it anywayz."
Ray: "Because I like you."
Me: "I like you too........or actually... *hesistates* LOVE YOU."
Ray: "I lLOVE YOU TOO."
Me: *veery quietly* "Thanks.."
*both of us are smiling happily at each other like marijuana-smokers*
I LIVE IN A KOREAN DRAMA!!!
On my inability for baking & feminism I am emmbarrased to death. I can't even read recipes. I added TWO cups of oil instead of ONE. Naturally the cake was awfully oily & because I don't wanna raise anyone's cholesterol, I just did the most sensible thing I could: THREW THE CAKE AWAY.*bang! bing! boink! wham! whooosh! poing!* <--- cake being thown to the dustbin in a beautifully innocently white plastic bag *sniff* How sad. The taste was good. But that oil!!! *bangs head & dies* My my, I'm not gonna bake anything anymore in whole my life. I'll stick by eating Korean shrimp crackers, making instant noodles & instant pancakes. My future hubby - whoever it is - I'm very sorry for you in advance!!!! At least this proves that the women-degrading "job" of HOUSEWIFE is really nothing for me. Ha!!!! Actually that's good, isn't it? ^^ I refuse to be like this:  Awfully degrading. >.< I'm pretty feminist, ain't I? And I hope I won't need to bake anything anymore.....NEVER EVER in my WHOLE life. *stabs various baking ingredients resolutely with a samurai sword*
CHRIS...
HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY..
TO YOUUUUUU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Me & Ray have been baking a cake called "The lazy cake" today...it's the easiest cake in the world...you just mix stuffs & let it bake, then put marmalade on it & that's it.
Currently I'm VERY worried cuz I had to change the recipe a lot.
Instead of white sugar I had to add the brown palm sugar.
Instead of the specific type of flour I had to add another.
Instead of poppy seeds I had to add raisins.
Instead of baking it in a certain baking form I had to put it into another.
Instead of certain baking powder I had to use another.
What stayed the same from the recipe was...err...eggs, oil, milk & marmalade.
Poor poor Chris.
If the cake is disgusting & he'll die intoxicated, I'll be very sorry for killing Ray's brother...VERY sorry....VERY VERY sorry....
I just went to check out the cake and even after 35 minutes it's still not baked enuff.
KNN.
WTF?
Why?
Grrrrr.................
%$&^%#&*&^$@&(&% >.<
I don't wanna be ashamed in front of my boyfriend & whole his family for not being able to cook/bake anything! *frustrated sniff* T_T >.< @_@
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